May
27th, 2013
Hey Family!!!
First off, thank you so much for you all writing. I love hearing
about the news from home. NATE get out!! That is so awesome. I totally wanted
to brag to all the other missionaries about my amazing brother but
I don't have the vocab yet to do it. So I just said my brother is
well..... PUCHIKA incredible. Congrats kid that is so cool.
Tania I am glad you had a good trip. I hope you took lots of
pictures. Sharlee is married that's sweet. How was the wedding? Mom
and Dad congratulations on your anniversary. It sounds like you have a great
day. Thank you for being the greatest parents in the world!! Maren, I
feel really bad that I didn't tell you happy birthday sooo..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY
really really late. I hope you still know that I love you and am thinking and
praying for you. Wow Nate, Caleb, Isaac and
Ok, so to answer a couple of questions. I am in the area America
it is in San Salvador and it sounds like I will still be in the
mission with President Glazier. So I am happy about that. They are great. But
no Belize ha-ha. Oh well. I really love my area. It is so great there are so
many people waiting to hear the gospel. We are teaching lots but we are having
a hard time having these people progress and come
to church and accept fechas. Something in Dad’s letter
surprised me. He was telling Maren and Jake not to compare their missions
to mine and not to feel bad for the numbers..... Maren and Jake ...please do
not think that it’s all rosy and great down here in Central America. I don't
like to admit this but I haven't baptized for a long time. And I
do know the discouragement and heartache when things fall through. I
finally got a copy of the fourth missionary and I feel so ashamed
because I am realizing that for many months on my mission and even now I have too
many times been the third missionary. One thing I am learning after a
year out is that the work is easier when your whole heart is in it. ....you
begin to want to work more than you have to. You hate p days because they take
time away from the work. I am not perfect and my area is not perfect. Happiness
and success do not come from circumstances of areas, of golden
investigators. It comes from who you truly become. True happiness comes from
within when you are at peace with yourself because your body and soul are
working together and not in opposite directions ...I am nowhere near
this point yet but I do have a companion that is there and I
am learning so much from her. Trust in God and he will bless you ... you were
sent where you are for a purpose. There are things you must learn that you can
only learn there but it is our choice to learn the lesson or
not.
This week, well was crazy, we had a multi Zone Conference and me
and my companion needed to give a 20 min lesson in the multi Zone. It
was the first time that sisters have been a part of the multi Zone ... I was so
scared. We talked on conversion. I realized I have so much to change and I
still need to become so much more converted to the Lord. We had our little
lesson twice and they both went well. I still say stupid things in Spanish that
are wrong but everyone does ( oh ... not that I am excusing myself because of
other men ...ha) but I realized that I still need to work on my Spanish and
perfect that with so many other things as well. My companion is Hermana Messina.
She was my companion in the CCM in Guatemala. She and Hermana Perry
and I were a trio. She is amazing and has so much faith she pushes herself to
the max and it’s something I need to learn to do as well so I am learning to
become better. Truly the Lord knew I needed her.
So we start our interchanges this week with all the sisters. We
are going to Jucuapa and anther zone in our area. I am excited to get to work
with lots of different missionaries but I am also feeling like I have nothing
to teach them that I am still learning so much. Just keep me in your prayers
please and know that I feel them. ...oh and I get to go to the temple!!!! This
next week I am so excited.... I love the temple. I am jealous that Mom
and Dad got to go to a sealing and see Chandler go through the
temple.
I have done a lot of, well I guess you could call it, soul
searching this week.... I have been thinking a lot about the person I want to
be and the person God has planned for me if I let him mold me into what he
wants. I pray that I will be able to make the changes that are needed and give
everything to him. Family I know that the Lord lives that he loves us and that
this gospel is true. Nothing will bring us closer to the Lord more than prayer
and scripture study, using the atonement and trusting the lord.
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