Monday, March 11, 2013

March 11,2013 Maren

Hey Family!!!! 

How are you all!? I love P-day, getting to hear from you and read your emails are the best. Haha. I miss you all so much.

First of all, Dad, I haven't actually gotten your letter yet... Sad i know. I guess is it has made it to the mission home and is just taking a little bit of time to get forwarded out. We actually didn't get mail for a few days because in the "big" (it wasn't too bad) snow storm a snow plow took out our mailbox and we didn't get it back up for a day or two. 

Jake! You're getting your Eagle?! That is so cool! I am so proud of you! and the Olsen's are totally awesome in letting you share your court of honor with their son. We do have some pretty awesome neighbors. :D

Good to hear its getting warmer in Utah. I am a little sad I wont be there to see the season's change... its my favorite time of year there, but I am way excited to see how spring will come to this little bit of paradise called Long Island. So far, this place feels just like home minus the mountains. Especially the snow storm. It dumped a lot but not in a dangerous way and by the next day a lot of it had already melted off. Just like snow storms in Utah. My companion is glad that I don't mind driving because she is from California and is pretty scared to drive in the snow.

Yeah the parade was cool. I just watched the video on the blog and you are right, that was me poking my head out on that video. You can't really see me so i'm way impressed that you managed to spot that. I think my thought process was something like... 'maybe my family will watch this... if they do I want them to be able to see me.' Haha. I guess it worked.

I asked the same question to my companion about whether the work has gotten easier in the Far Rockaway's... unfortunately she said not really. They didn't push the gospel on anyone while they were cleaning up, they were really just there to serve. But I am sure that something was planted in them through those associations and someday, even if its after this life, they will be open to hearing the Gospel, maybe even go looking for it.

Wait wait wait wait.... DISNEYLAND?!? what is this Disneyland trip you speak of....? I wanna go..... Haha. But seriously. What is it? Did the family decide to go after they ditch 3 of their kids on missions? 

This week has been up and down. It started out way good, lots of lessons and such but when we hit Thursday things went down hill. Almost every single one of our appointments juked (weren't home, wouldn't answer the door, or didn't show up). Not cool. It was discouraging especially because those were going to be awesome lessons! We will try again, but it makes me sad.

On Saturday morning we were dropped by one of our investigators. She was a way awesome lady who'd had a hard life and seemed ready to invite God back in... We had gotten her a Large Print Book of Mormon and she had read a ton in it! But before we even began the lesson that morning she asked us what our "mass" was like and when we told her and she discovered that we don't have memorized prayers she said that wasn't going to work for her. I wanted to cry. I wanted to scream. I wanted to debate and change her mind and make her see that to walk away from the restored gospel over memorized prayers was insane! But there was nothing we could do, just tell her that we love her, encourage her to keep reading, and walk away. My heart broke for the first time as a missionary. 

Me and my companion gave talks in sacrament meeting. Dad, you were talking about the talks in the Ensign you had read, did you read the one "The Enabling Power of the Atonement" or something like that? That was what my talk was on. Well not what it was on but it was my primary source as I prepared. I think it was a good talk. I hope people felt the spirit and the love of their Savior. 

We then got to teach the Gospel Doctrine class. We were subbing for the regular teacher. It was Chapter 10 in this years manual on D&C 25. It was an awesome lesson. As we prepared it all I could think was that this was especially meant for me. Verse 14 of that section talks about keeping ourselves meek and bewaring of Pride. Then it quotes a bunch from a talk President Ezra Taft Benson gave about how pride is essentially enmity. Enmity between you and God and your fellowman. It goes on to say that its the attitude of "My will and not thine be done." and essentially expecting God to change his will to match yours instead of changing your will to match his. You should look up the talk because the way he says it it completely amazing. I was humbled. I had to really examine myself, especially as a missionary. We pray all the time to know what we should do and where we should go and who we should talk to... but I had to ask myself if I was really willing to do whatever he asked. The answer, unfortunately was no... I hate knocking doors, I am a chicken when it comes to talking to people on the street... I am so prideful! It doesn't matter what I do or do not want to do... all that matters is that I do what God wants me to do. So that is what I will be working on for the next long while. Humbling myself before God and taking my will completely out of the equation. 

There are two upcoming events that I am so excited about. I really am in exactly the right place at exactly the right time (meaning Riverhead, not my mission, that part is obvious). On the 23rd the branch is going on a ward temple trip into Manhattan... one of the awesome Recent Convert families in the ward are going to be sealed on that day too, and for some awesome reason or another they are letting us go! I am so stoked. My first transfer and I get to go to the temple. I am so lucky!

The other awesome thing is that on the 24th there is a special stake conference out here and apparently a member of the 12 will be coming to speak at it. An Apostle of the Lord here in our area! I am so excited to listen to what he has to say. The Beal's, the senior couple we live with know who is coming but they kinda found out by accident so they're not telling. But they do confirm that its a member of the 12. How cool is that? And if I were anywhere else in the mission he would come and go and I probably wouldn't even know it. I am so grateful to be here right now.

I am also grateful to be here because we can feel that this area is ready to explode. The Spanish people are sharing the gospel with anyone who is willing to talk to them, the whole Spanish community comes to what they call "El Noche De Fortalecimiento." basically a Family home Evening but a ward activity  This week one of the non-members, who we're trying to turn into a progressing investigator, has asked to host it in her home on Friday night! Its so cool. But its little things that like, this area is ready to grow. Its going to take a lot of hard work and some time but things are going to start happening here. 

Family. Life is good. Take a minute and just marvel at how blessed we are. People, other missionaries especially, love to give Utah a bad rap. There are stereotypes upon stereotypes about being from there and living there and what amazes me is how many of them would rather live almost anywhere else then ever move to Utah... I love Utah! Its the greatest place on earth as far as I'm concerned. I love the people and the culture. Its different, and we have our thorns but it is a beautiful place. Just know how blessed you are to have been raised there, in a strong ward and stake with the resources and means to do all the wonderful things (youth conferences, camps, etc.) that we have been able to do over the years. We are truly truly blessed. 

Family. I know that this is the true gospel of Jesus Christ. A lot of people don't have any idea what that really means... they are not like Joseph Smith... questioning everything and truly wanting to know what Church is the True Church of Christ... they have just come to accept that we don't know and that one church is just about as good as any other. It makes me so sad... but then I get to tell them about THIS restored Gospel! RESTORED... that is such a cool word. It means brought back in its perfect form. It wasn't founded. Its wasn't invented. It was restored. Isn't that cool? Its not just cool its miraculous. If people could understand and have faith in that one little fact... things would be different. Someday they will. 

I know that my savior and brother Jesus Christ loved me and you so much that he was willing to go through the lowest of lows so that we could experience the highest of high's some day. He would have done it even if it was for only one of us... even if that mean't only one of us would make it home. Even if it was just you. Even if it was just me. That is pretty powerful love. And he didn't just do it for our sins, that is my favorite part. He suffered for our pains, afflictions, illnesses, and every injustice we will experience in this life. He knows how it feels when hard things happen to us. He knows how our heart feels all the time, every second of every day and he has experienced that too. He did it so that when the time came that I actually felt those things he would be able to comfort me in the perfect way. Ultimate Empathy. Its an amazing thing. I am so grateful for his sacrifice.

I love you Family. I promise you that as you keep the covenant that you made at baptism to Remember Him Always and heed the counsel in D&C 6:36 "Look unto me in Every Thought; Doubt Not, Fear Not" we too can feel the enabling power of the atonement and he will be able to comfort us no matter what the situation is, no matter what we are feeling, he really can help and he will bring peace, we just have to open the door when he knocks... and he knocks very softly sometimes.  

I love you!

Love,

Hermana Maren Hale

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